Love
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Why My Standards are as High as My Glasses Prescription
I didn’t always start out having high standards, in fact, I used to live my life in the ‘good enough’ lane — I took what was there, even if it was at the expense of my own comfort because I hadn’t yet learned how to put myself first. Looking back, I can see it for… Read more
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Who Am I When the World Isn’t Watching?
I believe my truest self will appear most when I’m quite alone in my room or anywhere in my apartment, walking from room to room with my cats running past between my legs, and I’m talking to them like they understand me. I would always have a coffee or some cold drink at hand and… Read more
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Memories of Life on Tamworth Road
It was January 2003 when Mama prepared her bags and suitcases ready for one of the biggest moves of her life — to the UK to further her PhD studies. Change for our family of five wasn’t just coming; it was already sitting in the living room, zipped into multiple overstuffed bags. It was nighttime… Read more
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How was your weekend?
I went to two friends’ gatherings and siblings outing in the span of the entire weekend. That… is a lot. As I’m typing this, it took me two nap breaks and one coffee order delivery with an extra espresso shot mocha latte to complete. My social and mental batteries are still sitting at 1%, but… Read more
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I tried to find love in a hopeless place (dating apps)
I have many regrets from the pandemic; the amount of money I splurged on mocha frappe on ShopeeFood and Grab, the haircut I gave myself, the hours I spent doomscrolling on what everyone else was doing, unsurprisingly gained weight from the said coffee, and—most significantly—the time I thought I’d find ‘The One’ on dating apps… Read more
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I’m Fine Now (But Tuesday Was a Different Story)
Anxiety and depression check: 7/10. They are ‘contained‘ for now, but there’s still a residue of frantic energy bubbling underneath, just waiting for a reason to go berserk. Currently, I’m anchored by the basics: a cold mocha frappe and two sleeping cats acting as furry paperweights in this Malaysian heat. It’s only Wednesday, but I’m… Read more
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I’m Happy I Don’t Have Children.
As a 6-year-old, I wished to never have kids, and I still don’t 20 plus years later. People often dismiss my childhood experiences with, “You were just a kid, what did you know?” But even at six-year-old, I knew exactly how I felt: I was quietly (and bitterly) unimpressed by my peers. I couldn’t stand… Read more
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I Turn 30 in 2026
I turn 30 this year and I never felt better. They weren’t kidding, whoever made the saying, “Age is just a number”. When you reach a certain age and lived long enough to not sweat over the small stuff, growing up more feels natural, like you’re just reaching another phase in life as you have… Read more
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Can’t Find Me
I heard you figured out a new excuse You play the victim so perfectly You can’t just let me be Always wanting things you can’t have You’re mad this heart is loveproof Thought we’re worth saving? Apologies? I’m sorry you loved me But I did give my everything You were sick of my mind I… Read more

