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I tried to find love in a hopeless place (dating apps)
I have many regrets from the pandemic; the amount of money I splurged on mocha frappe on ShopeeFood and Grab, the haircut I gave myself, the hours I spent doomscrolling on what everyone else was doing, unsurprisingly gained weight from the said coffee, and—most significantly—the time I thought I’d find ‘The One’ on dating apps… Read more
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Don’t leave the BS out in your journal
I went to therapy a week ago and finally let out all the heavy stuff I’d been carrying around. At one point, my therapist asked, “Do you journal?” I nodded proudly. I’ve been journaling for over 10 years! But then I added a caveat: I only write down the “good” stuff. You know, the day-to-day… Read more
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The Introvert’s Guide to Setting Holiday Boundaries (Without the Guilt)
The moment those Raya songs start blasting through the mall speakers and the racks are overflowing with every shade of Baju Kurung imaginable, I don’t feel “festive” — I feel like I’m prepping for battle. Don’t get me wrong, I don’t hate the holiday. It’s just that Raya, for me, is a marathon of social… Read more
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Wednesday Night’s Surprise
So. Last Wednesday. We were out for dinner, doing the usual late-night sweet drink run on the way home. My husband hopped out to grab the supplies, leaving me locked in the car. That’s when I saw it: a tiny black ball of fur perched on the shop stairs. Two wide eyes. Two pointy ears.… Read more
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I’m Fine Now (But Tuesday Was a Different Story)
Anxiety and depression check: 7/10. They are ‘contained‘ for now, but there’s still a residue of frantic energy bubbling underneath, just waiting for a reason to go berserk. Currently, I’m anchored by the basics: a cold mocha frappe and two sleeping cats acting as furry paperweights in this Malaysian heat. It’s only Wednesday, but I’m… Read more
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I’m Happy I Don’t Have Children.
As a 6-year-old, I wished to never have kids, and I still don’t 20 plus years later. People often dismiss my childhood experiences with, “You were just a kid, what did you know?” But even at six-year-old, I knew exactly how I felt: I was quietly (and bitterly) unimpressed by my peers. I couldn’t stand… Read more
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I Turn 30 in 2026
I turn 30 this year and I never felt better. They weren’t kidding, whoever made the saying, “Age is just a number”. When you reach a certain age and lived long enough to not sweat over the small stuff, growing up more feels natural, like you’re just reaching another phase in life as you have… Read more
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That time I almost died
My story of struggling with anxiety and medication management, including trying a higher dosage of lithium. I experienced initial relief but later faced severe side effects, prompting a change in treatment. Read more
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Can’t Find Me
I heard you figured out a new excuse You play the victim so perfectly You can’t just let me be Always wanting things you can’t have You’re mad this heart is loveproof Thought we’re worth saving? Apologies? I’m sorry you loved me But I did give my everything You were sick of my mind I… Read more

